by The Bathtub Project
Date of Interview: August 9, 2016
Name: GPaul Blundell
Location: Washington, DC
If you were a sea creature, which one would you be?
You know, the first thing I thought of was octopus because of how intelligent and flexible they are, but my classic answer is blue whale. Because they’re sooo big nothing fucks with them. And that’s their method of not being fucked with, it’s to be sooo big that nothing would consider fucking with them. And, that their life is swimming through this near infinite void, opening their mouth and food just flows into them. And singing with every other member of their species around the world. Sounds… sweet.
What are you passionate about?
I think the easy answer is that I’m passionate about communes. It’s where I’m putting most of my effort and work. But really, underneath of that, there are other passions. So like, a passion for people being able to lead the lives that they want to lead… And it deeply upsets me when people cannot live their lives that they want to lead. It can be anything from super basic shit, like not dying from preventable diseases, to more complicated shit, like not having confidence or self permission to do things they want to do. Or not having the resources to pursue their creativity. And then the compassion passion around there is for efficiency. I get deeply offended by waste. Yeah.
Do you think the way you were raised impacted these passions?
I think that… I assume yes. And it seems likely. You know, for me my passions appear to have risen as a result of the process of living. But then I look at my parents and the values that they embodied with raising us, meaning my brother and I, and what I see is the message that they were constantly giving us was that what they wanted for us, the goal for them and their lives, was for us to be happy. And doing what we want to do. And that they wanted us to be able to pursue whatever made us happy. And they’re also incredibly practical people. You know, like, a lot of utilitarian reasonable things. There’s not a lot of focus on social convention or appearance or social expectations or anything. It was very reasonable, practical people who talk about things and decide upon them reasonably. So I see the values that I think were viewed in their lives and how they are reflected in mine. Core values. I can only imagine that they are partially responsible.
What are you most afraid of for yourself?
I think in the long term I’m most afraid of being ineffective. Feeling like I wasted my life because I’m working so hard on all of these things and putting my time and effort into all of these things and I don’t want to feel like I’ve wasted it. In the short term I’m afraid of hurting people. But like, I want so much to be a positive force in people’s lives.
What are you most afraid of for the world?
I’m afraid that it won’t get better. I’m afraid that it will get worse. And I see this fear either in worrying about catastrophic climate disruption or ecological catastrophe, either of which could happen at any moment. There’s a whole bunch of them knocking at the door, any of them could not be avoided and shit would suck in a really bad way. I would be really sad and lots of people would be really sad. Or that capitalism doesn’t get better, it only gets worse. And that this stupid waste and suffering continues. Maybe intensifies. That’s what I’m worried about. I’m an optimist and I base a lot of my continuing to be in the world and engage with the world on the hope that it can get better.
What would you tell your 15-year-old self?
Umm… I mean really, I would like to sit down with my 15 year old self for awhile… What I would like to talk to my 15 year old self about would be relationships. You know, it would be some combination of “they’re just as scared of you as you are of them” and trying to teach my 15 year old self about how to have healthy respectful relationships. I don’t think I could do that in a phrase except for showing up in a ghostly vision and saying something like “BE BOLD, ASK QUESTIONS”.