by The Bathtub Project
Date of Interview: January 26, 2017
Location: Washington, DC
If you were an underwater creature which one would you be?
This is a tricky one. Because I very strongly identify with rodents and I’m also terrified of the sea. It’s one of my biggest.. well I respect it, but I’m just so scared of it that I don’t think I can be involved with the sea in any way. So I’m just a rodent. Rodent, you know.
How do you describe yourself?
OH boy, okay. Court. Number one, just Court. I am Court, I go through so many phases of thinking and existing and wanting to exist and dressing because gender… ::laughs::. Gender is a lot. It’s fun and exciting. I think of myself very strongly as kind and anxious and a Libra. I can’t go a day without talking and thinking about how being a Libra affects so much of my life. With striving for balance between wanting justice and harmony all the time… I can’t be in any situation, including being by myself without always trying to achieve a harmony. And you can’t achieve harmony between all things all at once, you can’t even do it for 20 things all at once so I’m very dreamy and distractible and optimistic despite how I feel sometimes. And also, just… I’m very proud of myself. That’s been something I’ve been feeling lately so my words to describe myself have become more plentiful as well as more confident.
What are you proud of?
I have Lyme disease and a lot of other health problems, including concussions. A lot of them. And I have been through so much and I have done so much to keep myself going. I have taken care of myself SO well. I have fought a fucking battle within my body, so many battles because once again, gender. It’s always there. And I am getting better! I have had three doctors in the past day, all tell me that I am on the mend, that they can feel my spirit inside of me again, well not that, that just came out of my mouth ::laughs::. Um, I’m getting better and I fucking did it.
What are you passionate about?
This is also something I think about all the time. I’m passionate about animals. Forever and always, that is the most solid part of me, at the core of who I am. But real quick, I must mention that I’m passionate about people too. It’s something I’ve been realizing lately and I’ve become more compassionate about other people’s passions. That is, a lot of times, something I do already love- what other people love, who I am close to. But my own passions involve animals and building and creating communities and connections. And fucking with gender. Yeah.
What is something you struggle with?
Surviving and helping other people survive patriarchy and capitalism and white supremacy. That’s become the core, well, it’s always been at the core of my struggles and everybody’s struggles. But that one right now in particular is eclipsing my ability to look at personal struggles. Including staying in touch with myself, maintaining connections to my past selves and building the ones with my future selves. So yeah, balancing the horrors of capitalism. And also my own uhh… the self-growth that I want in a world that isn’t within capitalism.
What are your thoughts on relationships? Platonic, sexual and otherwise.
I mean my thoughts are basically in line with the hope for the community I want. I really try to break down hierarchies in relationships and also in that, embracing fluidity in romance, platonic relationships and sexual ones and just… I mean, physical and non-sexual and romantic as a friend! You can experience relationships in so many different ways and in individual ways. Every person I meet, I am excited to embark upon discovering a relationship with them. They’re all different for me and I think so much that we have to recognize is that each relationship should be healing. That’s what I want out of a relationship.
What is something you’re hopeful for?
Okay, I’m going to take a break from talking about capitalism and gender because we can have entire lives that have nothing to do with that. Roll my eyes at myself… Um. What am I hopeful for… I am hopeful for the community that I really want to build, specifically in D.C. I just want to be a part of people recognizing what they need, and have others recognize what they need and being able to help one another reach those needs. Giving people attention and love and space to dump what they need to, talk about what they need to. I am hopeful for the chance to be a part of a community that values practices of intentionality and communication and care.